Round 3

Last night officially started our Round 3 with IUI.   My medications were delivered overnight, and I delivered three injections into my stomach last night, while Matt sweetly applied bandaids after each one :)  I am so thankful for such a tender husband that God gave to me.

As I have been studying God's Word this week and spending sweet time with Him in the mornings, I have been challenged and encouraged in living a life of faith before God and others.  It has been a challenging week as I re-study stories in the Bible regarding men of faith before our Living God, and how they responded when called to action - i.e. David and Goliath; Abram (before being called Abraham) and the promise of a child; the centurion who believed Jesus could heal his servant; the two blind men who confessed who Jesus was and believed in His mercy and were healed…and the list could go on and on.

I've had to confess my unbelief and lack of faith to God.  How you respond to your circumstances reveals what you believe in God more that what you say you believe in God.  At times, I can begin to feel God no longer cares about me and this desire Matt and I have to be parents.  I tell God that He commanded it, He says it is good to have children - "a quiver full", and that we are trying to be obedient.  :)  What I fail to remember in those moments of inward reflection instead of focusing on the Lord Himself, is that Jesus died on the cross for me.  His love for me was established on that day, and His love never fails.  He is more committed to my knowing Him and growing in holiness and righteousness than I can even imagine. He LOVES me.  Thus, He is walking with me through this trial.

There is purpose in all of our trials.  "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness".  James 1:2

How we choose to respond to our trials can draw us closer to the Lord, or push us farther away in rebellion.  We long to fight the good fight, be salt and light to those around us, and walk daily with the Lord.  Our hope and trust is in the Lord alone.  We are thankful that God has chosen us to "suffer with him" and to grow our hearts in steadfastness.  Of course, we long for children, and hope this month is successful!!! But, even more so, we long to look like Jesus…and Jesus suffered while on this earth.  May His will be done.